After 2 weeks of frustration and anger and depression pent up inside, I had a bit of a meltdown today. The combination of a too-hard bed (having a sore back every morning), the class that I'm probably going to fail, zero motivation, bad volleyball, too much crap food, and an emotionally-exhausting dream, finally got to me.

I was so tired (even after 10 hours' sleep a night) that I couldn't even cry it out, but I managed to let go of some of it today. And S helped me make a mini-plan to work toward some short-term goals. So, starting today, I'm going to try sticking to a schedule, with limited goofing-off time. One day at a time.

Baby steps, baby steps. <deep breath>